Feeling utterly defeated today.
Failed at the only thing I have control over.
My body is strong, my mind is stronger.
I can win.

I've stopped feeling.

I know the consequences, still I keep doing it.
My mind has so much power. Power even over my body.
So confused about everything. Always find myself thinking 'why me?'. Why do I have to go through this? Why does nobody else see what I see?
How can they go through a day without the unwanted thoughts that plague my mind every second of the day.
Manifesting in my mind, until I can't think straight, even in the face of logic.
What is happening to me?
Why me?

I feel sick when I eat,
I feel sick when I don't eat.
It's like a never ending cycle, which can never be overcome.
I feel guilty for eating,
I feel guilty for not eating.
Letting so many people down, and this is only the beginning.